Friday, November 6, 2009

i want to swim away but dont know how

i feel like going to the beach and jumping in the water.
clothes and all.
i really just want to float on the water
and drift away.
by myself. driffftttttt.
i feel like if i do this, i'll come out of the water feeling refreshed and different. more calm and more aware.
i feel like my life is being lived, but im watching it all happen from the distance. like im not controlling anything going on around, it all just happens. im living in a blur. im not sad or anything, i just dont feel right. something just gives me the notion that everything isnt clicked into place like it should be. almost like everything in my life can change for the worse at any moment. and i guess thats true. we cant control the future, we can only control the path. but i guess thats what scares me the most. the future. i just want so badly for my life to go in the direction i have set myself in, that it has become a great fear of mine that ill screw it all up.


yea. drifting sounds good right about now.

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