its one of those nights...

currently: 1:30 am

where the concept of sleeping is out the window.

when my mind has gotten to that state that i have tried so hard to keep it from getting to.

where my eyes ache from being open all day, but cant conjure up the want of rest.

where each minute drags out, overlapping the one coming next.

when all my emotions have gone blank.

it really is one of those nights, 

that has me wanting nothing but to waste time, listening to tegan and sara.

thats got me considering things i've never considered.

that'll have me craving alcohol's familiar bitter sweetness that i want to believe will fix me.

where the liquor cabinet doesn't seem so far away.

and all i can think about is not wanting to think.