i spend 80 % of my day daydreaming

so yea. i've realized that my mind trails off, alot. not in the ADD way, but i am constantly thinking of other things, all the time. im a daydreamer.

and i dont want to sound like a 14 year old boy, but lately i've been feeling like a 14 year old boy. and hahaha im not even scared to talk about...or blog about...or whatever it is im doing.
but i cant stop thinking about sex. blunt right?
well, its true! you know that song "birthday sex" by jeremih? i love it :)
im just...i dont know, but i cant stop thinking about it. i've just been having these urges....cravings i guess you could call them. i cant believe im blogging this, but i dont even care. its not like i want to bone every person i see but....im a daydreamer.

today:
-woke up pissed off
-spent the whole day pretending not to be pissed off
-had a bad day
-dropped everything
-like, i think i dropped my papers, pencils, water bottle, bookbag, atleast ten times today
-i just didnt care about anything today
-didnt want to go to school
-didnt want to go to gsa
-just wanted to sleep all day
-glad to be home

maybe its because i only got 3 hours of sleep last night....

empty

there's no way out, the only way out is to give in.
when there's no way out, the only way out is to give in.
how
i
love
to
give in.

please speak slowly, my heart is learning

"go.
go back to where you are meant to be. i dont want to make you go back to the place where there is no me. its better, i swear its better. am i troubling? i've found the truth. tease the situation, and pull my heart back into you. im swolen, i swear im swolen. the realization of everything falling towards wrong cant stop this want of you in my arms. im broken, i swear im broken. now go. go before i shatter as i fall for you."

-excerpt from a thing i cant remember the name of.

ISS DEEP YO.