marchtwentyfourthtwothousandten

she takes the alley back
around this building.
searching to find a part of her
that has always been missing.
out from my window
i can hear her heart
stop.
finally succumbing to the
number of times it has
fallen
apart.
i can feel her breath collapse,
air leaves her body,
as she stumbles to
hide behind her shadow
...haunting.
from somewhere unknown,
something grabs her insides,
pulling once more towards
the source of her cries.
down and out.
out and down.
i cant help but to see
this life on the ground,
struck by its own misery.
my want to save her heart
cant and wont suffice.
for she alone is the soul
that can save her own life.
thus,
i sit in pain and watch
this dream of a girl.
who cant seem to escape
being consumed by this
nightmare of a world.

you da you da best

i appreciate you so much. the fact that you would come to my house at 12 in the morning after a concert just to make sure i was ok, means everything. you barely had a plan, but you came and slept with me anyway. and thennnnnn you have to walk a THREE HOUR walk just to get back to your house in time to sleep before a THREE hour performance later in the afternoon....i mean, come on. who does that? who is crazy enough to even consider that? well, youre not crazy, but one of the most caring people i know. and the fact that you did this for me, makes me feel...well, cared about. im sorry for even making you worry. i cant make up any excuses for what i did, but im sorry that i even put you in that position. you dont deserve that, and i never want to scare you like i did last night again. never again. i cant promise that i wont fuck up in the future, just know that i do promise to never fuck up with my intention to hurt you. i love you babe. and thank you for being there.

sb

elly'ss os smartt. imma sssoooorrrrryyy. whaad my problem?you tell me . telme. cus immmmmmaaaa shitittittititittty. i luv you daddyyyy.