marchtwentyfourthtwothousandten

she takes the alley back
around this building.
searching to find a part of her
that has always been missing.
out from my window
i can hear her heart
stop.
finally succumbing to the
number of times it has
fallen
apart.
i can feel her breath collapse,
air leaves her body,
as she stumbles to
hide behind her shadow
...haunting.
from somewhere unknown,
something grabs her insides,
pulling once more towards
the source of her cries.
down and out.
out and down.
i cant help but to see
this life on the ground,
struck by its own misery.
my want to save her heart
cant and wont suffice.
for she alone is the soul
that can save her own life.
thus,
i sit in pain and watch
this dream of a girl.
who cant seem to escape
being consumed by this
nightmare of a world.

you da you da best

i appreciate you so much. the fact that you would come to my house at 12 in the morning after a concert just to make sure i was ok, means everything. you barely had a plan, but you came and slept with me anyway. and thennnnnn you have to walk a THREE HOUR walk just to get back to your house in time to sleep before a THREE hour performance later in the afternoon....i mean, come on. who does that? who is crazy enough to even consider that? well, youre not crazy, but one of the most caring people i know. and the fact that you did this for me, makes me feel...well, cared about. im sorry for even making you worry. i cant make up any excuses for what i did, but im sorry that i even put you in that position. you dont deserve that, and i never want to scare you like i did last night again. never again. i cant promise that i wont fuck up in the future, just know that i do promise to never fuck up with my intention to hurt you. i love you babe. and thank you for being there.

sb

elly'ss os smartt. imma sssoooorrrrryyy. whaad my problem?you tell me . telme. cus immmmmmaaaa shitittittititittty. i luv you daddyyyy.

savannah

call me.

christ.

i want this work out, i do. but if something happens...if he EVER makes you cry again. so help me god.

ahha

got locked out tonight. it was nice actually, because it felt soooo good out.. i just layed out and looked at the stars. god im such a...osbvoebvoenv. but what can i say? i enjoyed being locked out, i didnt care. enough.
and i love laying being shirtless. you started this. my love of walking around, laying around, playing around, without a shirt. i guess i could just go completely naked, but eh. i like this for now. being naked is for...other moments.

baby

im crazy. baby you're crazy. baby, we're crazy.

YOU NEVER POST ANYTHING

yea i know. sorry ahha.
so here i am. posting. just for you. because you're the only one that reads this.
prom was amazing with you last night. every part of it was good because i was next to you. the dancing. the talking. the pictures. meeting mr.lucas. all of it. preprom dinner. post prom dinner. before all of that... at your house.
but the dinner stuff was a little.....frustrating. mostly because i knew how you must've been feeling with mr.asshole and all. sorry. but thats my name for him. so yeaaaaa. other than having to deal with his sublimital comments, i had alot of fun.
i honeslty almost cried when that greenday song played. you know, the last one. because i knew that was the only gsa prom i was going to have with you. and that none of them will be as good as that one, because i wont have you. BUT. last night was truely better then i expected it to be. and being with you is better than any relationship could ever be.